I've tried so many times....going out from this "dump of poverty" wherein I am.How to be 'ready' for any single challenge, I've been through. I'm not interesting in anything anymore, I've quited dreaming. I've become a shadow of myself and I'm making a plea to God, every single time I have, to give me a chance or let me go. It seems that no matter what I've tried it's a waste of time, there is no future for me anywhere. I've tried so many things, in so different ways ...to reach my targets but all has gone to a dead end. All my efforts have not been good enough. How can I possibly overcome this situation when everyone have closed their eyes and denied the facts. Every door I've knocked has been close, never opened. I've been bullied, harassed, hit, ill-treated, abused, undergone all kind of humiliations.....I'm giving up, I can't find anything to make me move forward. I find life too difficult to keep her up. I wonder, not 'if' but 'when' I will end up sleeping under a bridge, I know it's a matter of time.